When All Other Options Fail, Please Knock on Someone Else's Door

Dear Reader,

I have many flaws.... the list is long and shameful...
but there is one that really irks me every single time it pokes its nose into public view, and that is the flaw of being far too understanding and forgiving.

I'm sick of this flaw, because it  tends to hurt me rather than make the situation better.

I want to be like Jesus in everything I do.
I want to make sure that He really defines my life.
And this is where I really struggle... where's the line between being too forgiving and showing grace like Jesus did?


A few evenings ago, I believe I punched this flaw in the face, and yelled "TAKE THAT!"
Usually, I let things slide... I don't like causing an uproar, because simply being peaceable about certain situations is much easier than standing up to frustration.
But when the same people push the same buttons that they have been pushing for over a year, it begins to take its toll on my nerves.

I'm tired of trying to be pleasant... of trying to overlook being treated like the last option... and really tired of being schmoozed over after I'm screwed over.

To put it bluntly... if you have other things that you would rather do than hang out with me, please don't hang out with me.
If I invite you to something, please for the love of all that is good in this world pay attention to what I've told you.... like if I'm feeding you.
If you know that you and I are on totally separate covers of a book rather than just it's pages.... please don't be offended if I blow you off.... you know we're not going to get along well anyway.
Lastly, please oh please do not try to win my favor back after you pulled the same stupid actions that you have in the past.  Let's just be straight with each other.

I may have acted rudely... but I've been walked all over before.
Like I said, I'm really tired of being the last option and not an initial choice.